Wednesday, November 25, 2009
You can ignore this post if you want to (:
It currently 12.33am
I'm here to post all my feelings out.
Haish..
I somehow feel very sad ):
Dunno why but this feeling wont go away after some chatting.
Now I'm really very confused.
I was thinking am i lie-ing to myself?
Or i have been saying lies to myself all this while?
Or peoples are telling me lies all this while?
So many question just keep staying in my mind.
I try to answer myself but i just couldn't find those answers
I was thinking if i know all those answers
My life will get better?
I will feel less hurtful than I'm currently am?
I will be more happy?
Or maybe if i know all those answers
My life will get more miserable?
I will feel more hurtful than I'm currently am?
I will be more sad?
I really hope that i can really think as naive as i can and stop thinking stuff so complicated
Even though crying out may feel a little better but it really doesn't help me solves those questions at all.
Staring at blank spaces are the only things i can do now.
Peoples told me after sleeping tml will be a better day.
But can i really sleep without thinking those questions and stop dropping my tears?
I'm sick and tired of acting cheerful when i know I'm sad
If i dont act nth happen and be cheerful.
Those often caring for me will be worrying for me right?
Sometimes i really hope there a feelings stealer
that can steal all my feelings away..
and i wont know how those feelings feel like.
Anyways I'm sry to let you all listen to me
i mean reading to it.
Thanks for the care(:
Babe who have been keep caring about me for my up and down and doesn't want me to get hurt again. But all i can say to you is I'm very sorry cause it too late, cause i have already put in my 100% attitude into it.. It will be quite hard to take back everything now.I'll try my best not to get myself hurt alright? Anyways i love you. I'm giving you 1 big pieces of cookie x: -Give babe a big piece of cookie-
Derek which is babe stead thanks for your concern anyways.. I'll be extra careful and thanks for those tips. Hope babe can learn.LOL. Derek as what babe said stop looking down on yourself alright? No one is looking down on you.No one is perfect in this world and everyone in this world are unique. You dont have to be the same like others. And she really love you. So I'm giving you 1 big piece of cookie too ^^ -Give Derek a big piece of cookie-
Baobei who came back from holiday not long ago. Thanks for chatting with me and sending me those audi emoticons. It really brighten my day a little. We didn't chat alot today but i just wanna tell you iloveyoutoo aright? I'm going give you 1 big piece of cookie also. o.o -Give Baobei a big piece of cookie-
Daniel thanks for asking what happen to my mood anyways. Not really alot to say cause I'm running out of ideas. Thanks for accompany me sms-ing for the whole day. I think for the moment you are drunk but you keep telling my that you not drunk.Okay anyways iloveyoutoo arlight? I'm also going give you 1 big piece of cookie. >.< -Give Daniel a big piece of cookie-
Lastly this is for myself. I gonna cheer up no matter what happen. The rest of the cookies is mine (: tatas peoples.Sorry if there spelling mistake or error
♥ Never wanting to forget euu, the memories- 12:24 AM.
