Monday, November 30, 2009

HAPPY/SAD? I DUNNO

i dunno i should be happy or sad.

Cause i'm like 50% happy 50% sad.

I'm happy because Daniel coming back soon (:

I'm sad because he come back i may not going to online ):

Skip this topic bah x:

So while he in cambodia..

i must really thanks my baobei and obsessions pei-ing me in msn..

Thanks alot ._.

I really did alot thinking for these few days.

After this thinking my feelings to daniel is really wavering >.<

Maybe is because alot things happen bah.

To say the truth..

I dunno how long can i wait.

Every question i think always link to another question

And by that time there is like 1 whole stretch of questions to answers.

Which i really dunno what to do.

I think that all i will post today.

maybe the more i like you the more sensitive i get

maybe the more i like you the more question will pop up.

1moredays

~~ireallymissyoubadly.~~

♥ Never wanting to forget euu, the memories- 11:41 PM.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

3 out of 5 days things change

Yea. it simply 3days your not in sg and alot of things happen.

Things keep happening and after that i do alot of thinking on it.

Long post today.. Catch your breath and read slowly (:

Just like last night and today.

Last night i was kinda dunno doing wad..

And someone called me..

Chatted with me..

And that is when i realise that I'm too naive..

After i hang the phone..

She sms-ed me and told me that they broke up ):

I felt kinda sad for her

and asking her weather if she can patch back with him..

She say it's impossible..

Cause of his mum object them.

And that night i really think alot on this topic.

Is there true love in this world?

Did his mother know that her son will be sad to break up with her?

i know the mother may be happy cause of the son break up.

but seriously you like his ex so much?

they already broken up.

i repeat BROKEN UP.

and no matter that girl love him so much.

it wouldn't captured back his heart.

Cause once that feelings is gone it mean gone.

So what you like her?

Are you gonna force your son to marry her?

Or are you gonna marry her for your son?

Hello auntie? you dating or your son dating now?

Saying my best friend fat?

OHHH. i know his ex is skinny?

So what she skinny and pretty?

Does she have a nice heart?

Or are she like your little spy?

Helping you to captured your son for you forever?

Why cant you just accept my fren?

I'm so sad that you dunno how to be a mother even you got a son..

Objecting ppl in love?

Sad.. i bet you never been in love before..

Even you been in love.. you have been dump alot times by your bfs.

That why when you see them so sweet.

you make up a excuse saying she is fat and broke them up?

Aren't you happy that both of them is no longer stead?

I only can say maybe you have a really black heart.

If you say being someone stead..

must know how to pick up clothes on the floor and wash..

I can say go and die better.

Treating my friend as a maid ?

Nahh.. she not gonna do that for your son.

You can ask his ex and do for him.

Cause you like her so much that you teach her alot things right?

Have you ever even talk nicely to my friend..

Your son talking on phone with her..

what you do is listen to what they talk.

You know something call privacy?

I bet you dont. Check it up on the dictionary(:

What you did to this relationship..

Please go reflect it on yourself.

I wont talk much on here.

Cause it simply wasting my space and time (:

Okay no more about that ''being noble mother''

Hmm.. let talk about her SON then.

not really alot to say to you.

But i can tell you trying to avoid this problem is not a good solution at all.

Telling me letting go is the best way for her to happy?

i can tell you..

That excuse is LAME, BULLSHIT AND NOT ACCEPTABLE.

Sorry if this insulted you daniel.. but i'm saying the truth.

So now you telling me letting go she will be happy?

Alone suffering is better?

Sad yourself oso better?

Let me tell you what me and her think?

HAPPY? the ans is NO.

We not happy. breaking our heart and saying in a nice way

I'm letting go of you..

Wow such a gentleman.

You alone suffering ?

Hellos? Aren't we suffering here too?

You broke our heart? and you say you yourself suffering.

Sad yourself oso better?

Broke our heart.. we crying ourselves.

And when you broke a girl heart..

What we sisters have to do.

Is keep cheering her up.

Once you end of story with her le.

Then we have to clean up the mess.

Okay back to topic..

So you telling me you believe in fate.

Lemme tell you this

OHHH. fate telling you that when you turn 25 years old you gonna be a company CEO.

So now you no need study le uh?

I'm still wasting my breath helping you last night asking her to patch back..

I guess I'm wrong.

You simply wan hear your mum.

Fine then. your mum wan back the ex

the go stead back with the ex then..

1 sentence to tell you I'm seriously very disappointed in you.

I hope this wake you up.

So spend my time watching tv whole day again.

Yep. again.

Cause there pirate of caribbean today.

Seriously no mood to post anything up today.

Kinda feel so sad for her.

And I'm running a fever now >.<

Keep getting dizzy.

But there tons of stuff to do.

Like this retarded thing happen.

And make me think so much.

Think whole night somemore.

Insomnia coming back ):

That all bah. Byes(:

if you saw what i post.

Want find your fren spam my blog cbox?

Whatever then..i'm not going to entertain you(:

2moredays.i'm still waiting

♥ Never wanting to forget euu, the memories- 10:00 PM.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

I DID NOTHING TODAY

yea.. so the title simply tell you i did nothing today.

That why nothing to post.

I simply wake up watch tv whole day.

So woke up about 2plus?

and my lunch was tapao D:

Cause house no rice le..

Yep.. Rice eat finish that why no more x:

So 3pm i watched channel u..

Some investigation show till 5pm.

And i flip to channel 8 and watch dunno what show.

but i know is repeat de.

Watch till 6.30pm.

6.30 to 6.45 i simply just jumping around my house.

Then 6.45pm i flip to channel 5.

Pirate of Caribbean..

Yea. watch till 9.30pm

It simply so nice okay.

Even though i watch it before le.

It doesn't hurt watching again right?

Cause i was really bored..

So have my nice bathe and then I'm here to post.

I didn't even care to do anything today..

but just watch tv to entertain my time..

And i realise I'm getting fat ):

Yep. fattening..

Cause of eating and sleeping.

Thanks to mr daniel who currently not in singapore.

That why no one stop me from eating unhealthy food ):

And I'm getting fat..

It all your fault MR DANIEL

I'm going bold it and make it red and big big!

That all bah ..

Anyways 3moredays(:

i sms-ed him.

hope he can receive and reply.

but i guess not?

I HATE WAITING ):

♥ Never wanting to forget euu, the memories- 9:59 PM.

Friday, November 27, 2009

IT SUCKS! IT SUCKS!

This seriously sucks ):

No ppl sms me before i fall asleep ):

Not alot ppl to chat on msn and making me lazy to online ):

So i slept at this morning 4am?

i know i'm sleeping more and more late.

Cant blame me.. alright?

Cause the show suppose to end at 3am

And it end at 4am ._."

So i woke up at about 2.17pm

And i think i getting insomnia soon >.<

Yea.. again ):

1 out of 5 days is gone

Finally 4 days more ^^

I suppose that no ppl sms me mean i can save my phone bill O:

And i really want watch so many movies

But then i'm so pok.

The movie i wanted to watch like mad is New Moon..

I think starting tml onwards..

I must think of smth to do le >.<

like folding paper heart x:

apparently that day i wanted fold as many as possible

but then i quarrel with daniel and end up folding 5 only.

Okay i know i quarrel with him almost everyday x:

And this 5 days no quarreling with him..

it like breaking record okay?

Edit on 11.08pm:

Seriously fcuk up lah!

Daniel not around and so many things happen

No place to blabber all my stuff out.

Now i'm like pouring all out to my LoveLove

You treat me as your wad?

Rubbish bin?

Punching bag?

Or just your friend?

Seriously lah.. If you just treating me as a friend

then dont caps lock me.

Seriously if you really sad or hurt..

You can just pour out everything to me

I can be your listener but not your punching bag.

I already say le is better not know the hurtful truth right?

You simply just ignore it and go find out the truth..

I warned you last time you didn't listen..

If the truth hurt.. I'm very sorry to hear that.

I know these few days.. i keep mood swing ):

Then my sore throat all come out.

Currently LoveLove saying crap to me.

Making me laughing like mad..

that all peoples(:

~~Seriously if i say i nvr keep hu si luan xiang.~~

~~I'm lying to myself..~~

~~It like I'm in sg now and he is in cambodia >.<~~

~~And I'm scare he may with another girl x:~~

~~Not that i dont trust him.~~

~~But I just cant stop thinking x;~~

~~Maybe I'm over sensitive bah.~~

~~Just hope he faster come back.~~

~~And i think he is hoping that he nvr come back.LOL~~

~~cause 5ays later..~~

~~He need give me a answer (:~~

♥ Never wanting to forget euu, the memories- 8:09 PM.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

SERIOUSLY I GOING CRAZY SOON ):

Okayokay. I'll come back why i going crazy soon topic later.

But first lemme just type what happen yesterday ._."

I somehow sot plug go find topic to quarrel with daniel yesterday.

Not really want to quarrel.

Cause somehow i dunno why.

I wake up during afternoon reply his msg.

Then i argue with him.

So i was kinda mad at him..

And i start giving him blessing with him and other girl >.<

Yeayea i know i'm crazy x:

So i went tell baobei that both of us will be over..

And my poor baobei have to keep pass msg here and there for us.

In the end i was kinda tired and fall asleep..

Oppies.. you can get really tired after arguing cause you are wasting energy.

Wake up. saw babe sms me..

So sms-ed with her and she told me she kinda disappointed in him >.<

So watched tv as usual cause kinda moody.

I'm always moody if i quarrel with someone.

Then went bathe..

So spend a long time inside..

In the end me and daniel back to normal..

So he off very early >.<

Sms-ed him till 3plus

I wanted pei him till 4am.

Cause his said he need reach airport at 4.

But then i dunno why i fall asleep >.<

And somehow i woke up at 5.55am

Then i realise omg >.<

Nvr reply.. and i think he fly liao.

Okayokay enough of bubbling all those thingy

So i said i going crazy soon cause my msn is damn quiet

Phone oso damn quiet..

Only 1 word to describe..BORED

I'm totally bored to death.

So i'm currently watching Devil May Cry.

5moredays(:

Only 1 words to say imydaniel ):

~~I'm really counting down~~

♥ Never wanting to forget euu, the memories- 8:55 PM.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

You can ignore this post if you want to (:

It currently 12.33am

I'm here to post all my feelings out.

Haish..

I somehow feel very sad ):

Dunno why but this feeling wont go away after some chatting.

Now I'm really very confused.

I was thinking am i lie-ing to myself?

Or i have been saying lies to myself all this while?

Or peoples are telling me lies all this while?

So many question just keep staying in my mind.

I try to answer myself but i just couldn't find those answers

I was thinking if i know all those answers

My life will get better?

I will feel less hurtful than I'm currently am?

I will be more happy?

Or maybe if i know all those answers

My life will get more miserable?

I will feel more hurtful than I'm currently am?

I will be more sad?

I really hope that i can really think as naive as i can and stop thinking stuff so complicated

Even though crying out may feel a little better but it really doesn't help me solves those questions at all.

Staring at blank spaces are the only things i can do now.

Peoples told me after sleeping tml will be a better day.

But can i really sleep without thinking those questions and stop dropping my tears?

I'm sick and tired of acting cheerful when i know I'm sad

If i dont act nth happen and be cheerful.

Those often caring for me will be worrying for me right?

Sometimes i really hope there a feelings stealer

that can steal all my feelings away..

and i wont know how those feelings feel like.

Anyways I'm sry to let you all listen to me

i mean reading to it.

Thanks for the care(:

Babe who have been keep caring about me for my up and down and doesn't want me to get hurt again. But all i can say to you is I'm very sorry cause it too late, cause i have already put in my 100% attitude into it.. It will be quite hard to take back everything now.I'll try my best not to get myself hurt alright? Anyways i love you. I'm giving you 1 big pieces of cookie x: -Give babe a big piece of cookie-

Derek which is babe stead thanks for your concern anyways.. I'll be extra careful and thanks for those tips. Hope babe can learn.LOL. Derek as what babe said stop looking down on yourself alright? No one is looking down on you.No one is perfect in this world and everyone in this world are unique. You dont have to be the same like others. And she really love you. So I'm giving you 1 big piece of cookie too ^^ -Give Derek a big piece of cookie-

Baobei who came back from holiday not long ago. Thanks for chatting with me and sending me those audi emoticons. It really brighten my day a little. We didn't chat alot today but i just wanna tell you iloveyoutoo aright? I'm going give you 1 big piece of cookie also. o.o -Give Baobei a big piece of cookie-

Daniel thanks for asking what happen to my mood anyways. Not really alot to say cause I'm running out of ideas. Thanks for accompany me sms-ing for the whole day. I think for the moment you are drunk but you keep telling my that you not drunk.Okay anyways iloveyoutoo arlight? I'm also going give you 1 big piece of cookie. >.< -Give Daniel a big piece of cookie-

Lastly this is for myself. I gonna cheer up no matter what happen. The rest of the cookies is mine (: tatas peoples.Sorry if there spelling mistake or error

♥ Never wanting to forget euu, the memories- 12:24 AM.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

hello (:

not going post anything today

busying chatting in msn with my babe

buhbyes O:

♥ Never wanting to forget euu, the memories- 10:37 PM.

Monday, November 23, 2009

Hellos(:

hmm.. Last night kinda quarrel with daniel

but in the end we say sorry to each other o.o?

So i didn't slp alot today ._.

i only slp 4 hours

which seriously lacking of slp D:

thanks to the renovation upstair

they start at i think 8 or 9 plus i not sure

at first i thought it was upstair doing some retard stuff

and they will stop eventually.

But unfortunately that sound didn't stop

and it after that it become drilling sound

which i cant really sleep.

and i start try different method ._.

and it doesn't work.

So i sms-ed daniel to tell him that i'm awake

he was suprised i woke up so early

i'm a lazy girl who doesn't like wake up early.

so i told him the reason. he ask me put earpieces

i neeeed quiet to sleep or i cant sleep.

so the drilling sound was getting louder and louder

and daniel cant pei me sms cause he got cca i guess?

So i went out to drink water

and realise that the loudest drilling sound was near kitchen.

so i start screaming and run into my room ._."

covering myself with blanket,pillow and even try using teddybear.

but i didn't work D:

and daniel really didn't sms me back so

i have no choice but bear that noise and sleep.

Seriously i even try using cotton wool

but it doesn't really help.

so i use ear pieces and blast my lappy music.

for a reason i was quite tired and daniel didn't sms me back for quite some time

and i fell asleep.

and i woke up again due to ear pieces drop out.

then i saw daniel sms reply back listen music.

then chat with him. he went back to his training again.

And i fell asleep again.

so about 11 plus the sound get softer?

and then 12 plus it stop.

then i was quite happy.

then i was half asleep half sms-ing.

Then i think going 1.30 that drilling sound came back

i have no choice but to wake up.

so that sound seriously making me headache and thinking there was earthquake

cause i kinda think my wall is vibrating ._.

so i went to brush my teeth and you know wad?

even the sink oso vibrating ._."

so was sms-ing while brushing my teeth x:

took a damn long time

and i really dont want eat lunch

and peoples are forcing me to eat

cause they say for my own good >.<"

So was multi-tasking

until daniel came msn x:

today didn't really chat alot with him ._.

but we did play game alot

cause i was kinda addicted to the nitrome game call ''in the dog house''

which i play like mad from afternoon till now

and completed whole game x:

i know i'm kinda slow.

cause i need chat and play at the same time.

Mr daniel is curently still playing x:

That all i guess i will write about

some stuff are not meant to share to you all x:

it will all keep inside my heart (:

ANYWAYS BAD NEWS!

Diana not coming back today D:

thanks to the indo ferry was overload and sink ytd

her ferry was delayed maybe for days

if worse it will delayed for WEEKS

ohhmy ):

but i sitll can chat with her on msn

i'm glad she didn't take the ferry ytd.

knda worry (:

time for daniel fav line x:

listen up daniel(:

woaini(: woaini(: woaini(: woaini(: woaini(:

dont get too happy about it x:

♥ Never wanting to forget euu, the memories- 7:57 PM.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Hellos(:

i back posting cause i'm seriously bored to death ._."

Kay shall not post about what i do today.

i'm bored because daniel is busying pei-ing another human being

under my request to ask him pei her

Cause is like he have been pei-ing me every single day

and he kinda neglect her?

Since we are not stead..

He shall not pei me 24hours in msn cause my audi is not working

thanks to my lovely desktop that goes missing file.

So i'll be rotting in my lovely msn

i'm just kidding xD

Daniel such a nice guy >.<

Cause ytd he was like i pei her then you how?

He forgot smth call sms

keep asking you how you how?

Cute sia him ._.

Since he is busy playing game.

and i was busy playing my psp

which i just put dynasty warrior 2 in today

and i was kinda addict to that game

and seriously i kinda dunno how to play?

Cause i keep getting gameover x:

And i ask daniel how to save my health

he told me i dunno leh?

i hit until i die then i play again

LOL! i oso know.

Kay so currently i'm still waiting for him to come back to msn

That boy seriously give me tons of game website to entertain myself

and i'm so addict to this webby http://www.nitrome.com

and i told him. Inside game cute lah

he say soso only D:

Okay i shall stop talking about him x.x

or you all will be nagging?

who daniel??

why keep say him?

Who is he to you?

That one i shall not tell you (:

Guess yourself (x

and i'm so happy that diana babe is coming back sg tml

i guess is tml if not tml mean the next next day (:

and i changed my blog songs x:

hope you'll like it

Cause daniel dont like those singers D:

But i like them

and we'll have nvr ending argue over this little stuff ._."

STUPIAK DANIEL x:

that all (:

Byes. i going back to play my Dw2 x:

crazy over it

iHeartyouDaniel(:iHeartyouDaniel(:iHeartyouDaniel(:

Dont get too happy about it. x:

♥ Never wanting to forget euu, the memories- 9:35 PM.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Hellos(:

So i slept at 3.45am last night O:

hmm. actually wanted slp at 3am

but then i hungry cause daniel keep say his stomach make noise..

Just nice my mother bought my favourite cup noodle..

making me wan eat >.<

but i was quite lazy to brush my teeth again.

In the end i make up my mind and cook that noodle.

So waited quite a while cause i keep think the noodle not cook ._."

When i went cook the noodle.. Daniel went cook oso but he finish faster then me D:

nbm.. girls are always slow in eating x:

For the first time i think the noodle was spicy..

and i share with my mother cause i dont feel like eating much for supper..

Later i grow fat.. Daniel mai me x:

while eating.. msn-ing with only 1 person..

cause diana was slping ._."

After that i have to brush my teeth again..

thanks to my stomach and someone telling me his stomach making sound and make me go cook.

So.. off-ed lappy and off to bed..

sms-ing in the first place.

and i fall asleep and nvr reply back.

Wake up at about 1pm?

and my mum was like wake up 1pm le..

and i say orh..and i fall back to sleep again xD

and she keep calling me wake up..

i couldn't take her saying of wake up

Finally. i open my eyes

EYES HOR DANIEL! NOT ETES

so started finding my hp.

then reply the msg that i nvr reply

and i was quite slpy oso

in the end about 1.20 i decided to on lappy

so i lazy sms daniel back and i reply back him on msn

Chat with him like almost whole day.

Never ending argue?

3pm watched channel u until about 6 plus

about 6.37. daniel went mop floor

cant believe boys do housework right?

so have dinner and chat with him again?

Currently i'm still chatting with him (:

Babe whole day no online leh D:

was waiting for her to online..

but she nvr online..

i think busy doing her last minute shopping

cause she coming back on monday.

OMG. i cant wait (:

kay that all.. bubyes❤

Song currently i'm listening to

-You are my heaven by SS501

-Thank you by Kim hyun joong

-My everything by Lee Min Ho

-Love like this by SS501

Elaine❤Daniel

♥ Never wanting to forget euu, the memories- 8:22 PM.